The Feeling Of Guilt

When somebody close to you dies, you're always devastated. But it's different when you know you could've spent more time talking with them. Getting closer to them.

My friend died two weeks before my birthday this year. He was one of my closest childhood friends. We grew up together for 15 years. We worked together, played sports together, ate meals together.

Yet the last time we spoke was because he accidentally called me. I feel guilty that I didn't talk with him more in recent times.

I wasn't thinking about someone who was constantly caring for me, even when I didn't see it.